You know, for all the drooling 
and daydreaming 
and sighing 
I do, there is one thing I really wish I could have done with Paul at CT. (And no, it did not involve a big jar of sugar-free chocolate sauce. 
)
I wish I could have just sat down and talked to him for a couple of hours. Not asked him about things like, "What was it like to work with Spielberg or Sigourney Weaver or Ioan Griffud, etc, etc?" I would have just liked to sit down and talked to him about ordinary things. What he likes about home. What his favorite food is. What he likes to read. What it was like growing up in Liverpool. Ordinary things.
I guess that's why I envy people like Lynn Gavigan are lucky enough to make that connection and who can do that sort of thing with no problem, who can head out to dinner with him or sit in the bar with him, just chat, and not blink an eye about it.
I even envy you a bit, Estelle. Because for an hour, you had that chance. You got the chance to talk to Paul as Paul. Not just as the sex god we all drool over, but as a warm, real human being.
I guess that's what gets to me about the people who went to see Sabina and Mourning Becomes Electra and all the others. In all the stories they told, they got to have those ordinary conversations with him.
It's not that I never experienced that warmth for myself. The way he treated me when I gave him the cross stitch was way more than I ever could have hoped for. The few moments I got to speak to him, I did discover for myself what a good person he is.
I guess I just wish I could have gotten the chance to talk to him more.
and daydreaming and sighing I do, there is one thing I really wish I could have done with Paul at CT. (And no, it did not involve a big jar of sugar-free chocolate sauce. )I wish I could have just sat down and talked to him for a couple of hours. Not asked him about things like, "What was it like to work with Spielberg or Sigourney Weaver or Ioan Griffud, etc, etc?" I would have just liked to sit down and talked to him about ordinary things. What he likes about home. What his favorite food is. What he likes to read. What it was like growing up in Liverpool. Ordinary things.
I guess that's why I envy people like Lynn Gavigan are lucky enough to make that connection and who can do that sort of thing with no problem, who can head out to dinner with him or sit in the bar with him, just chat, and not blink an eye about it.
I even envy you a bit, Estelle. Because for an hour, you had that chance. You got the chance to talk to Paul as Paul. Not just as the sex god we all drool over, but as a warm, real human being.
I guess that's what gets to me about the people who went to see Sabina and Mourning Becomes Electra and all the others. In all the stories they told, they got to have those ordinary conversations with him.
It's not that I never experienced that warmth for myself. The way he treated me when I gave him the cross stitch was way more than I ever could have hoped for. The few moments I got to speak to him, I did discover for myself what a good person he is.
I guess I just wish I could have gotten the chance to talk to him more.
"Time may heal all wounds, but it's love that smooths out the scars."
--The Doctor to Skyler Monroe.
--The Doctor to Skyler Monroe.
